Surprise Yourself But Don’t Rush It


I have been trying to make this my mantra since last week because I feel like I don’t do enough “for the first time.” Honestly, probably the last time I did something for the first time was back in February when I joined the new group with whom I now attend Sunday Mass. I made new friends and now I am becoming “part of that world” (sorry to burst Ariel’s bubble – hahahahaha, get it? – but it takes more than three days).

Just last week, a job passed through my inbox for which I thought I would be reasonably qualified. But I didn’t apply. Why shouldn’t I? It was a chance to move, do something different, to surprise myself! Why wouldn’t I want to apply for this job?

Because I still have some unfinished business here in Pittsburgh. I can feel it. I also know that everything will come in its time and rushing won’t make things any easier. I want a full-time job? Great. But think about how much time I’m spending now on grad school. It would be almost impossible for me to go to school full-time and hold down a full-time job. I just made new friends here. I’m not ready to give those up yet. Also, I still feel like there is a lot I can learn at my present job that will benefit me after I have my Master’s degree.

There’s no rule that says I must be a full adult at my age. I’m still relatively young. Sure, several of my friends are living the “I got a full-time job right out of college” life, and that’s okay. Our lives are all meant to take different paths and we will all get there eventually. That’s the beauty of our world. It takes all kinds of people to move and transform it.

If I am a librarian, and God is inside me, then it must mean that God is a librarian, too. He’s also a doctor, a computer wizard, a nurse, a mother, a father, a foodie, a writer, a baseball player, a restaurant owner, and a waitress. God is everything and in everyone. So, who cares if I’m taking a different path to be a librarian? We all are meant to take different paths to get where we are meant to be in life, but that doesn’t make us any less important. Material things mean nothing if you don’t appreciate the good in your life.

So, for now the bus stops here for me. I’m okay with sticking around a little while, enjoying the view, and learning some more about myself before moving on.